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to be healed

How do I feel right now? So Indefinite! I’m suffering from chickenpox right now and it’s causing me so much itchiness. But now, it’s easier for me to take care of myself through my knowledge about it and through all the sources I have. Aside from that I have my family, who supported me,

In life you must have your equilibrium (the state of balance) to make your life fruitful. Don’t be too confident of everything you possess, you might lost it if you just hold it and stare at it. Make sure that you will use it in a right way. God has given us everything, and the greatest gift is the life that we have. We live everyday to experience everything that He wants us to experience. And it only means that it’s not all that we want should always be considered as our priority. We should listen to Him not to any other evil sentiments. If not, that’s the time we go to the wrong path that should not be taken by anyone, but people always cries out that they are weak that’s why those evil creatures love to befriend with them. Up to the point they are so uncontrolled. Sometimes God gives us challenges not to be broken but rather to keep us whole. So when you think things are getting harder for you, don’t put yourself inside a box. Rather, run to the nearest peaceful haven you know and then, P R A Y sincerely. You’ll know how it feels to be healed.

one tueday morning..

last tuesday.. i woke up early to text jason and ask if there's a meeting for the cathechist aspirants... wen he confirmed it, i rushed to the meeting place.. at icc formation center.
wen i got there it so happened that there's a pre test for us, and some of them are already done, so i have to answer it before the time ends.. after answering the questionairre i have to introduce myself infront of everyone.. so i did.. after the whole meeting..
someone approached me,. then she asked me if i know someone whose name is ". $. #. @.. " ,, i quickly answered yes.. then ask her why.. then she told me that,,, that guy is her son.. i was really shocked!! wut a small world... grabeh!! i cant imagine that the person im talking to is her mother.. i was so astonished.. that i cant even compose any phrase that i could say to her.. i was really getting cold.. my hands are getting clammy... haist..

it was really unforgettable...

the next day i happened to read my horoscope in the news paper..it was actually for the tuesday.. then i read there about something i will find about my lovelife.. or something like.. something will be revealed on that day..

i dont know wat to think of about it.. if i will take the horoscope seriously relating it to the indicent that unexpectedly happend to me.. golly!!

stars

under ds dark sky
my eyes r awaken by ur touch
dont dare to move
my heart will shout in excitement

im so bored
but then u came
i was surprised
we got d lucky smile
u gve more spark
under d twinkling stars

*** i cant be real
u myt be fooling
a one weak gurl
wid weird emotions.
just let her fil d warmth of ds embrace.
coz ds is me,
i myt be her. . .

dnt try to leave a mark u own
just let me share,
a part of sensation.
hold me until d air is there.

time seeks for truth
i want to save u
and hav u whole.
i almost stole u,
hw i wish i cud.
ds darkness wud allow
but wd d stars witnessing. . .

Bridge:

if ever r eyesmit again,

il take d chance to feel d hymn

of another sparkling night.

tickle.fate.for.a.while.

it was summer of 2006, wen i actually had d oportunity to know nic,, but i rilly cant remmebr him during dat summer camp in tanay. it was just recently that he told me he was there.

during the joly week of 2007, along with my youthmates we joined 'the way of the cross' (stations: from bicutan to pasig) dat was organized together wid the youth we met in the camp. that night was a little uncomfortable to me, because Eri, the guy igot along with during and after the camp, is with his new gurlfriend(After ilost my communication with him)

i didnt even bother to react differently, only wen he came ryt next to me, wat i did i refuse to walk besyd him.

then out of nowhere, i saw my 'ex.play.time.bf.daw' : Carl and ryt next to him is a cute guy hu caught my atention.

weeks after dat, carl txtd me, he was just askin how i was during d past few weeks... so i replyd:

me: ok lang..

carl: ah, hindi mo q pinapancn nung nagkita tayo ah.

me: pinansin kita, kasama mo nga ung mga friends mo eh. cnu nga pla ulit un katabi mo, un nka stipes?

carl: ah si nic, may number ako nun gusto mo? teka lang...

carl: Business Card Receive

nic 09145642545

me: bakit mo binigay? ndi ko naman hinihingieh. hindi nga ko kilala nun eh.

carl: ok lang yan.

me: cge, ittxt coh sbhin q binigay mo.

carl: ok, cge..

So ryt after dat i txtd nic, suddenly igot a reply.. He was asking, how did i know his number, i told him carl giv me his number, so he asked, 'y?' , i told him, i dont know, he just giv itto me, w/o askin it from carl.. then we had a few q and a's

- weeks after..

we exchange quotes and even hi's and hello's

-months after..

he's asking for an advise because he had a big fyt wid his gf..

Yes! you read it ryt! he has a gf!

-A year after..

Finally, we meet again,

it was another activity we had wd them along with my youthmates,

but during that day, we nver had any conversation though he was seated besyd me. I was kinda asking myself if he really knws me, so i just thought dat he cant recognize me, but how cum?

eh, everyone around us was calling me by my name.,

so i concluded dat he is suplado!

morning of next day..

i got a txt,

it was him!!

nic: hndi mo bako nakita kahapon?

me: nakita suplado ka nga eh!

dats d start of our week long text..

then weve cum to a point dat we enjoi each other's replies..

then unexpectedly,,

i dont know wat popped up to his mind, dat he asked for a '5-day relationship..'

at first, he's asking me to find a girl for him,

eh cno nmn sa mga friendscoh? kya i quickly replied, i dont know anyone, hu can be his gf for 5days(before his 1stday of school)...

and besides 4 days nalang xe gabi na un..

den sbi nya 'ok'but at my surprise he asked...

nic: kaw nalng?

me: ngek, ndi namn ako pretty..

nic: sa txt lang namn

me: ok cge..

so dat.. he became my 4day bf..

sounds weird?

but its cute! and i luv everything that happened..

we also had a conversation on d fone, it was clear to me, dat though he dont hav a gf and he's looking forward to have one, everything between us is not for serious thing, so we talked about everything dat we cant squill..

d switness,, really ended after 4 days! ang galing! its like asif we rilly signed a contract.. haha!!!

now were bak to wat we really are before, wid a little side stuffs...

*smiles...*

a mother turned to child..

wut r u going to do with a person u pitty most..
not because that person dont hav money anymore for her daily living,, but rather because she cant control herself anymore..
u r concern for her acts but she doesnt listen to anyone's advice...

u dont have any chance to talk to her, and you dont even see her anymore but somebody is telling u about her lyf now..

she has done the first mistake in d past and now she did it again..
how can u giv her the trust?

i dont know wut to do especially to young pipol around her,.. to stay beside her,
have nothing but her hug..

u cant blame her and accuse of things coz,, its her kife and she has her own reasons of doing it.. but it will be more unreasonable if she will continue doing it..
she wants support but how can somebody giv it to her if she dont know howto handle herself..

she's not perfect and nobody's perfect..
but little things will give justice tour own self..
doing nothing is being useless..
doing everything is being a mess of society..

u have to balance urself..
dont dare abide into immorality..
give urself a chance to create a healthy spiritual life.
if u begin to love and respect urself..
everyone will show u the same..

being beautiful is not wat we see on screen,,
but rather inate beauty is earned thru righteous acts u can render and give to urself.

ct.hol

yesterday..
i woke up early coz i have a lot of things to do...

my first destination is pasig city hall to get a voters certification, because my auntie needed it.
to go there i have to ride on a tricycle and a jeep..
but wen i asked the tricycle driver if how much will it cost to get there thru his tryk..
he said its only 20 pesos.. that was so discounted!!

so wen i got there to the comelec office i first asked the guy seated at the front desk..
then i told him wut i need..
he gve me a paper for me to write details about me (i.e. -name, birthday, etc..)

then the other guy who is really assigned for my district, accompanied me to his desk and ask some q's before giving me the certificate...

but suddenly,, he's asking of some personal matters like if i do hav a boyfriend or something.. and wats my profession..
so i answer him with the right details,, but wen he asked me for my cellphone number for his reason he told.. that if there's already a voters id availble he can inform me easily..

i was kinda irritated with his style.. so,, wat i did.. i just lied..
i told him i dont really have cellphone coz i hust lost it recently.. and that the one i brought is my mom's phone...hahaha!!

but then,, he did not give up
he gave me his number for the same reason he told me...

aun,,

then after paying the certificate,, i left already..

hahay... that was something unforgettable coz i have to go back there to really get my id..

yays.. !!!

to all concerned: Legion of MAry

To all active and non- active members of Legion of Mary All over the world, it's time to spread the goodness of this humble organization brought us in our own lives...

This whole month of july we celebrate the "Legion Awareness Month". This is to inform everyone that Blessed Virgin Mary opens her heart to everyone, we are the brothers and sisters of His Son Jesus Christ.

To join and become active again:
You can ask information at your parish office about it.
And they will lay you information about it.

thanks!!

edit ur pic and use it for good...

life stream...

hai..
im in d real world.. wer ups and downs exist..
i can feel d colness.. i feel so blue.. it's hard wen u self pity it's like u dont have anything that makes u happy but the truth is., ur not quite a loser.. u almost have anything.. but u dont see it.. u dont realize it.. it's just that some things are not really meant for you.. there are things that u thought u can have easily..,, but it is'nt..

u try to have fun.. u tickle ur fate for a while but then wen u look back u see urself at lost.. u dont know wats missing but u feel kinda awkward about the things ur doin.. it doesnt make any sense.. u gain fun but lost happines and woth of urself..

sometimes i blame myself for not taking things seriously..
or maybe for being too serious about stupid things..

u may not regret it.. coz uve done ur full effort on it.. but it seems that it's not really the things u should do...

*sigh*

moreover,,

i feel pressure from my own self.. it sounds so weird.. wats new? im a weirdo..

just this morning,,
jason and i went to Delgado Hospital for our interview..
wen we got there,, after waitin for an hour , i converse with the HR personnel..

mam: you are for what?
me: for interview mam
mam: for wat position?
me: staff nurse mam
mam: nag exam kana?
me: hindi pa po..
mam: kelangan mo mag exam

then she left..

me: hala! naku...
jason: hala mag eexam ka..
me: cge.. ok lang..
jason: lagot..
me: ano kaya un exam..

the HR personel cme back..

mam: mag e-exam ka ah.
me: opo..

then i took the exam..

hala ano ba namn ang exam..
i diddnt expect.. i thought it's all about psychological q's..
i was wrong it's kinda hard.. ay hindi its really hard pala tlga!! my goodness...
match the generic name with the brand name..
HALA!! im not familiar with meds.. i really i admit it..
pharmacology.. wa coh ma say!!!

aun.. at si jason.. sa nurse aide ok na... for orientation..
i dont know if i would choose nurse aide narin.. haaii...

ds is another disaster of my jobing hunting days...

yays!!

this is really patethic..
waaah..



hope to have my work na...
hospital field daw dapat..

im so confused na nga eh.. i dont know if i should hav a career change...

para sakin b tlga ang field na to??


*sighs*

....smiles....

Wag mong aaminin - Rule no.1

Kamusta na?
Tagal nating di nagkita
Ay, oo nga. Nu’ng ’sang araw lang pala
May Kasama ka na ba ngayon?
Ba’t di muna tayo magkwentuhan? Sasamahan ko pa ng inom
Parang may iba sayo ngayon
Nangangayayat ka na yata, o nag-iba ka lang ba ng buhok?
Minsan naman lumabas tayo
Kung gusto mo pa, isama mo ‘yang boyfriend mong bulok
Di naman kita sinusuyo
Sinisiguro ko lang na walang magtatampo
(Pero) ‘Di ko sasabihing gusto naman pala kita
Hindi ako pababasyo kahit na halatang halata‘Di ko aamining may gusto ako sayo
Hindi ako patatalo sa laro ng pusong ito
Kampay muna. O, ano na bang balita?Away na naman? O, bakit ba ganyan?
Parang ‘di ka na yata masaya
Kasi, dapat naging tayong dalawa(Hindi ah)
Nagloloko lang
‘Di ko sasabihing may gusto ako sayo
Hindi ako patatalo sa larong ito ng mga puso‘
Di ko aamining may pagtingin ako sayo
Kung gusto mong malaman ‘yon, itanong mo nalang sa kaibigan ko

im ryt!! but they dont see it!!

.. its always a dilemma for me, wenever ders a decision i hav to make. its usually on things dat i must do. its becoz wenever ders a risky thing i must decide on, i think of it a couple of tyms..
if is it d ryt thing to do? wat will happend? or wats wid it?

its hard coz sumtyms,,,,,,, the ryt thing to do doesnt make u feel comfortable..
then ol u can say ' ol i did is for d pipol hu means a lot to me. . .' but its hurting me, wen those pipol u think of becme more suspicious,, and accuse u for being so selfish and not thinking of their welfare!! its so unfair!! ol u can say is '''oh well,, i wish i can turn back tym and decide only for wut will make me hapi.. and accept all accusations...'''

kainis!!

tingin na nga ng iba sayo 'K.J.'
tas magiging masama ka pa...

waaaaaaahhhh. . . .


hahaizt..
well,, things really happen d way u dont want it to happen...
i wish i can be more risky. . and i can gain more courage to try everything and learn from it..

wut's wrong??

im 21...

and life has no rewind...

if they can,, why can't i???