holiday spirit

Christmas and New Year

was there!!
They made me happy!!

i used to complete the so called "simbang gabi" every December...
and that made me wish yearly!!
now.. i have wished for sumthing that i really wanted to happened..
and that is to forgive a friend who used to be my buddy in our batch as well as to be forgiven by him...
and to help me throw mah pride on a burning past..

actually,, we argue on sumthing unexpected.. i dont want this to happend but because of his playful mind,, we came to this point!!

but God is really good.. He made mah wish fall into very delightful feeling..

as New year come... we have lower down our voices and say sorry silently to each other..we never knew that was reconciling to friendship that we have almost ended..

it was really funny...

i remember singing the song...

"pangarap ka nalang ba, o magiging katotohanan pa?
bakit may mahal ka nang iba?
ngunit di bale na kahit mahal mo sya,
mahal naman kita.."

that's the song i was singing... "wala lang"
i just heard it and asked him if he knew it.. then he asked me to teach him that song... it was funny..

now that we have reconciled,, it's a good thing to start with... auhmm... to go back into the place where we were before and ask ourselves.. why we have to turn our back if we could make some time to forgive and let go of the hurt?!!

i'll promise..
i will stay smooth..

The Art of Letting Go By Adrienne

LOVING SOMEONE is such a nice feeling and being loved makes you feel ecstatic. The hardest part of it all, however, is letting go. People say that it is so hard to form a good and stable relationship but it would take seconds just to break it.
Learning how to say goodbye without the guilt and the hurt is the most difficult path a person could ever pass through. It is just like having two roads that you need to trek--one in blue, being the less traveled--and the other in red, being the most traveled road for lovers and couples.
I took the long red road and found out how lucky I am to meet few good men in my life. But then I realized that it was then a time for me to live on my own and celebrate the rest of my life before really looking for the right one. I want to take the blue road: the less traveled road, the road where drifted souls would want to pass through. It has proven to be a good road after all and it made a difference in my life.
Now that I have found the guy I would want to grow old with, the lesson I got from letting go made me a person with sense of self-worth, a person ready to love again and make another person feel loved.
Breaking off is hard but would it teach you to start a new life. The wound that stays after calling it quits would heal in time though it would leave a scar just to remind you of how strong you are to withstand any pressures of challenge in loving somebody.
Learn to let go and to break free for there you would realize how powerful love is. As they say, you don’t have to choose love because love itself would choose you

he is...

it was really sumthing weirdo.. looking at wut happened in `d past and wut may happen in the future...

look..

i happen to met this guy 7 yrs. ago...he's so young, as well as i. we dont know wut's life ahead.. his eyes were so innocent and sincere...he's very gentle and mild.. i was so anxious of wut he wants..because of my youngmind..
but then,time past.. he step back and move far.. far that i can reach him but i can't have him as i want now to happen.. i dont know.. where i got this idea.. but my mind pinches my heart..and eyes longs to see him near wit me..

seven years had past.. and he never cared to say those words i want to hear.. but im glad.. we have special realationship as friends.. maybe because.. he is my first true cry.. and i am his first sight.. that was a taste that will never be forgotten.. the sweetness of each sugar that made us smile again..we love each other as brother and sister in Christ.. but how i wish he do felt spark and magic as we share victory of love....