Love strikes in anyway... especially in awful ways...

Have you ever experienced loving a person and everything between you makes you sick? Not because he’s too bad for you nor too good looking for you...
It’s all because you got this right love at the wrong time situation... that makes your relationship erroneous and maybe will make you instant sinful person!!!
That makes you scream or badly hate yourself for being stupid being on that kind of situation... Ang masama pa dun... halos lahat ng mali na experience mo!! Gee!!! I think I need to release some of emotions and share some kwentos about it...
These are some stories I will lay to you for you to find out what kind of relationship to go or to say no! No! with it!

MY BEST FRIEND’S SUPER CRUSH IS ON MY WAY!
When I was in my primary level year of schooling on an exclusive for girls school, the girl to girl relationship is very in, though your serious or not! Anyway you want, as long as you go with the flow and you are "in" because you have "ka-onn"... ha-ha!! ... At my 6th grade years, I had my best friend named, Mica. We always share things especially secrets about our crushes. It came to a point when she got so interested with one cute "tibo" on their neighborhood, she really like her but my best friend don’t have any communication device to had a chance of talking to her, so she let me call the her. Initially, we talk about Mica everything about her, but as time passes by, our conversation become so close about her and me... and just a little about Mica... She introduced me to her barkada and become close to them to the point that we get along, they share their problems to me and the very unsoundly, "reto thing" is pointed on me... as they reasoned that they don’t like Mica rather they would like me to be with their friend. And that at first I didn’t tell Mica, but as I got my conscience back, I pushed myself to tell it and accept how she will react, and expectedly our friendship became cold (but we still treat ourselves best friends) especially when I grant the other side request... to be with their friend... I cannot believe I happened to do this. A month after, I decided to stop calling her without any formal parting. And that made our friendship back gradually. And Im proud to say that until now Im on my 4th yr in college we still call each other best friends.. = )

MY SUITOR’S GIRLFRIEND
During the high school years, everyone have his or her own crushes and of course, I don’t wanna be left out so I got one! Ahem... Not one lang pala...hehehe...
In my 3rd year, I happened to have my one- day crush. I call him that way because after the day I have realized that he’s my crush, I discover that he had a crush on my friend so I stopped liking him.. after a month or two.. He cracks a joke on me that he likes me... Every time we hear it we laugh!!! But it came to a point that he seriously uttered those and he followed it with a question, if he can court me.. It was so kilig!!! Sooooooooooper!!! (Ikaw ba naman tanungin ng crush mo ng ganun) so ofcourse, I have no reason to say no!! hehehe... eion,, days after my friend called with a news, she told me with a small fright that he still have unfinished relationship with other girl. The moment I heard it, I smiled but after hanging up the phone I cried.... I run to my friend near my house then we called him up... I didn’t talked to him that moment because I’m crying while my friend is having that uneasy conversation with him, then I started to throw some bad words on him... Kainis kasi! After that, he promised to end it with that girl for him to prove that he is sincere! Siyempre ako naman.. sige.. aun hanggang sa napatawad ko na siya.. aun.. he continued courting me, while that girl keeps on making friends with me. Im not that bad to ignore her so we started friendship, as she give me letters expressing how much he loves the guy so I should take care of him, how their relationship worked and everything about them. But then the guy we are talking about, suddenly stopped courting me, I don’t know his reasons and maybe I just tell myself, yan ang karma! Nakasakit ka at babalik din ang sakit sayo ng doble! Tama pala!

I SECRETLY LOVE MR. PHONE GUY TOO...
After having a hard time forgetting heartaches I’ve been through, my friend introduced Mr. phone guy to me . We happened to know each other well on the phone and he really wants to see me. Of course, it is so stupid if he will not admit that he looks at person’s physical features. Our friendship grew and it lasted a year but we still didn’t meet. Ayoko kasi eh.. ang dami ko ngang ni- ri-reason out sa kanya to the point na nakakainis na un mga unreasonable excuses ko.. Ewan ko, that time kasi I happened to liked him na rin that’s why I have this hesitations to see him in flesh.. with the thoughts, maybe pag nakita niya ko magbago lahat.. bka bigla siyang maging cold baka d niya ko magustuhan.. arghh.. that’s my only reason!! Ang babaw..pero we survived but with heartaches, I don’t know nasaktan ko rin kasi siya with all my promises that I didn’t make! If he thinks that it’s so for me to do all those things, he definitely wrong! Sobrang umiiyak ako everynight nung mga time nay un, pro I wont tell him. Hanggang dumating sa time na lumayo siya at nagbago sakin, he stopped calling me. And that’s the time I have realized everything was not for me. But a month after, at 3 a.m. he called up to say hi and para kamustahin ako.. Im so happy!!pero we happened to control everthing at ako, I never told him how much he means to me and how much I have loved him...
Oops!! Don’t worry nagkita na kami... at ngayon may own family na siya!!

HER BOYFRIEND IS SOMEWHAT MY FLING
When my friend and her boyfriend had a problem, they run to me for help right away, the time they happened to have a big problem, and the situation is somewhat, as if it was the world against their relationship, I have played a complicated role. Her boyfriend always confide on me ever since they started their relationship, I load up my cell phone and spend it all for our texts. . We text every night and chat about everything. We never missed a night without each other’s text. Then as we became closer and closer, we happened to stroll at malls together and do everything, that is how we enjoy being together as if we are more than friends. People who see us together always ask if he is my boy friend and we will just chuckle at it thinking it is too funny that almost everyone got that weird idea of asking us that question! Sometimes we end the day throwing a joke "Naku baka mahumaling na ko sayo niyan", then giggle! We never thought his relationship with my friend would make us even closer. But suddenly when people always ask the same question we realized that we have to take a distance, so it wont hurt us and probably I don’t want to hurt somebody especially her girlfriend who’s been my close friend.

HE JUST GOT MARRIED!
I have a lot of crushes ever since and now it is different. He is 8 years older than me, a God- fearing person, who loves to talk and give advises and used to give a spiritual messages to young people like me in addition to, he is a very humorous person who cracks a joke time to time and laugh without hesitation. We met on an organization because he is always there for us to help. I have only realized that I like him is when every time we have a conference I am always looking for him and I always wanted to see him. He is so sweet. I have told this to the president of our organization and she told me that He just got married, after living with his wife and daughter for 4 years, he have realized that he have to settled down and finally be called as a family. And that made me think, because what if she had another girl and be in love with her what will happen to his wife and daughter? And that happened to our president and to him, she told us that before they text each other with I love you’s in the end. And they had become closer and even sweeter. Now at least he has decided. My friends and I call it as a "bawal na pag-ibig" nyahahaha!!!! It’s just that, I really like him! He makes me laugh and we always have this different conversation, and we always look for each other. He goes to our house and ask questions (of course about our org), that little things made me smile. And when we tease each other, it’s so different! I know he likes me too.. common...(FEELING)!! Hahaha...but of course, I wouldn’t come to the point that will ruined his family.

SOON TO BE DADDY
There was a time that I became an addict of mirc, I chat from evening until morning... that’s stupid but it I don’t want to stop. Hahaha!!! Until I happen to chat with one nice guy, he’s so entertaining, he has a lot of questions, until we exchanged numbers, so after that we continued the conversation, we text and talk over the phone. But we didn’t come to a point that we meet. Until he did not showed up or even called na. After a year or two, he called up, he explained everything that happened, and he told me that he lost my number, until he had it by her mom’s cell phone. Then we meet. I was with grace when I meet up with him, and as he came to the place, grace had left us so we can keep our conversation private. He treated me to Mcdo and have some conversation there. He opened a topic about his guy friend that is already having a family, until I throw a joke "naku napag iiwanan ka na" then he utter "kala mo lang yun, yun nga yun sasabihin ko sayo kaya ako nakipag meet, hehehehe" I was alarmed of what he want to say, then he said that he has a girlfriend and they’ve been together for a year and now they are having a baby. Hahahaha... Grabeh diba?? He told me that he’s not yet ready but he have to make a decision and marry her. He told me that, it’s sayang, kasi ngayon lang kami nagkita, before daw, when we still have communication, he had liked me na. He wanted me to be more than a friend before. Eh,, ayun wala na namn kami magagagawa. Pero nun magkasama kami as if we have something, he’s so nice and sweet to me, after that I already told myself that I should stop seeing him kahit to have any contact with him. Kasi pangit namn na may asawa na siya tas we communicate pa.

HE’S RESERVED TO SERVE "HIM"
I am an active member of a Parish youth organization and I happened to attend different kind of youth activities until I have also joined the Youth Camp in Tanay. I am some what excited and tinatamad to join, ewan ko ba! Pero when I got there, I cannot remove my smile over my face, everything’s falling into place, I am enjoying it and loving it! I met different kinds of personalities, and I happened to have a close guy friend, it started when one of my group mates fooled me and said, "he’s my brother" I was shocked because they even talk until they act as they were really are. And me, being fooled. Until, that became the start of a good relationship. Before the camp ended, we exchanged tokens. After that, we continued our communication, with texts and calls, and there is something different that we cannot hide to ourselves, something that makes me alarmed. In that case, still I should not forget that he is entering the seminary. Yes...he is... That whole week after the camp is the only time we spend on communicating, it’s too different from other experiences, and it really is, I can’t decide whether (1)I should stop him and give him a damn condition that if he entered he should stop thinking of me or (2) let him go, and wait until he has decided if he really wants to continue it. Arghh... I have told every one including myself that I do not want to be selfish, let him do or go where we wants. Until the time came, it was the last day of our conversation and I really cried inside me. Bahala na si God, that’s always my prayer.